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It's all in the article I suppose
Jan. 15th, 2014 02:16 amPopular wisdom has it that I need a woman. I respectfully disagree. That is an honor, a pleasure and not a few times an embarrassment that has been mine to claim. Perched over some, indefatigable as a stone gargoyle. High voltage arc lightning jitterbug within the grasps of others. It was all good... even when it wasn't.
But for now, while the yearnings that led me to siren doom and gentle triumph alike remain just as strong, they're command has waned. It's given me something as unexpected as wisdom and irreplaceable as true endurance.
It has allowed me to remember the time when I needed not 'a' but 'the' woman. When I couldn't wait to get off work so we could eat dinner, talk, drink wine and go to bed together. When I could stumble home drunk or pull myself out of the page or the pipe or the dance floor, intoxicated either way, and find my way to that place she was waiting. Not just having someone I could share a conversation with, but someone I could just as easily enjoy sharing a silence as well.
That's something only 'the' woman can give me and after a long time punishing myself for the crimes of a man long gone, I can honestly say I am ready to meet her.
But for now, while the yearnings that led me to siren doom and gentle triumph alike remain just as strong, they're command has waned. It's given me something as unexpected as wisdom and irreplaceable as true endurance.
It has allowed me to remember the time when I needed not 'a' but 'the' woman. When I couldn't wait to get off work so we could eat dinner, talk, drink wine and go to bed together. When I could stumble home drunk or pull myself out of the page or the pipe or the dance floor, intoxicated either way, and find my way to that place she was waiting. Not just having someone I could share a conversation with, but someone I could just as easily enjoy sharing a silence as well.
That's something only 'the' woman can give me and after a long time punishing myself for the crimes of a man long gone, I can honestly say I am ready to meet her.
