Dream Journal
Jun. 17th, 2013 02:06 amThe dream was quick this morning. Quick, simple and mean. I laid on my deathbed in a hospital, an old man surrounded by strangers. They just stood around me in a circle, looking sad and uncomfortable in the presence of my dwindling. I tried to speak, but found it difficult to do so. I waved my hand for them to come closer, but they mistook this as an order to leave. Individually, or in groups of two or three, they departed, until only a little boy was looking at me.
And I knew just by his eyes alone that he was my son.
I reached forward for him, strained against the tubes and wires I was hooked up to. The boy turned his back on me and without word left the room.
Suddenly there was a doctor and a nurse hovering above me.
There was a struggle, but I found my voice at last and was able to ask them what the name of the little boy was?
"Who?" The doctor asked.
"My son." I gasped.
The nurse and doctor exchanged sad looks before looking down at me. I could see now that they were actually my parents albeit as I remembered them from my childhood. Dad, the doctor, smiled sadly when he told me: "You never had a son, remember?"
Nurse mom nodded and my doctor dad told tried consoling me, saying how everything was going to be okay, that they found a little nice room for me to die in. They began wheeling my bed out of the room and before we get past the door I start screaming for my son at the top of my lungs but had no name to call out.
Woke up at a little before nine on a Sunday, couldn't go back to sleep no matter how hard I tried. So began Father's Day 2013.
Tomorrow might not be better, but it will be easier after that.

And I knew just by his eyes alone that he was my son.
I reached forward for him, strained against the tubes and wires I was hooked up to. The boy turned his back on me and without word left the room.
Suddenly there was a doctor and a nurse hovering above me.
There was a struggle, but I found my voice at last and was able to ask them what the name of the little boy was?
"Who?" The doctor asked.
"My son." I gasped.
The nurse and doctor exchanged sad looks before looking down at me. I could see now that they were actually my parents albeit as I remembered them from my childhood. Dad, the doctor, smiled sadly when he told me: "You never had a son, remember?"
Nurse mom nodded and my doctor dad told tried consoling me, saying how everything was going to be okay, that they found a little nice room for me to die in. They began wheeling my bed out of the room and before we get past the door I start screaming for my son at the top of my lungs but had no name to call out.
Woke up at a little before nine on a Sunday, couldn't go back to sleep no matter how hard I tried. So began Father's Day 2013.
Tomorrow might not be better, but it will be easier after that.
